Tuesday, July 3, 2007

I Am Not Worthy to Receive You

Yesterday, as an untimely Autumn wind blew a July day cool and the sun peeked through the trees, I scooped up my baby.

I felt as though I was stealing a moment.

"I am not worthy to receive you," I said with tears streaming down my face.

I am so unworthy. Unworthy of this past year. Unworthy of the privilege of knowing, loving and serving the gift of August. Unworthy of having my sin and selfishness burned away by glowing eyes, the cutest smile and sweet smelling skin.

And when he cries in the night or demands that my own concerns are second to his (even though his concerns should be mine), I hope I always remember the honor that it is just to hold him (and hold all my children for that matter).

For those of you who don't know his story, his daddy wrote it down. For those of you who do, know he's healthy, happy and 1-year-old today. Happy Birthday, Augustine Ambrose. We adore you.


Abigail said...

We love you, Gussy, and we join in praise for God's preservation of you!

Thank you, too, Sarah, for reminding me of the beautiful and undeserved gift that all children are. May God help us to love them well and raise them rightly.

Rebecca said...

Happy #1 to the little guy! It is hard to believe a year has gone by! Thank the Lord for His goodness and graciousness to us. I hear Gussy walked before his two lil' girl cousins--good for him!

I myself had a moment overwhelmed with thankfulness for the Lord's gifts to me, as I was getting splashed wet by "two" babies playing in the tub the other day, watching "two" babies play peek-a-boo, listening to "two" babies say "uh-oh", and watching "two" babies take their first steps. The Lord is so good!

Leah said...

Sarah, what a wonderful blessing our children are! Especially when we come so close to losing them. But God is good! I rejoice with you and Pete over your precious son's 1st birthday!